How do you feel to have being baited with a form of a materialistic thing and have it hang just close enough for you to smell it but you cannot even touch it even just for a millionth of a second? To be completely honest, I have been holding myself back from rage quitting .. or even better, to blow up on someone.
This is why I have come to a conclusion to not work alongside a friend, and/or not being friendly, friendly with a co-worker in the future. The line is so blurry and you gonna end up considering their feelings instead of just make them do their job.
One thing that stands out to me, I was not even welcomed...???? from the get go???? Like the fuck????? My intention was to be professional and there you were .. already judging me??????????? HELLO, HERE'S A MIRROR!!!! /inserts mirror emoji/
The cherry on top was like, this is not the FIRST TIME?????? HELLO PLEASE REPORT TO ISLE 3 FOR SOME SELF INTROSPECTION.
.... but .. meh.
I'm pulling all my emotional strings back from wherever it leads to. Rolling everything in. Because at the end of the day, all I have is me. I have to make peace for myself.
In retrospect, 2020 was so uncomfortable, professional-side wise.
For 2021, I'll choose my sanity and my feelings.
January 29, 2021